THE DECISION

Since we got only about 3 weeks before our final semester exam, i want to wish all of u a huge good luck! This is my second post in this blog. Anyways, thanks to vijay for making me part of this. For this post I decided to share on the toughest task i have ever experience in my 18 years of life.

I have always had a hard time in making decisions. When i asked someone’s opinion, they would say, just follow your heart (instinct). The thing is, my instinct is not that strong. Sometimes, I even wonder whether i have an instinct or not. Being a dentist had been my ambition since I was in my primary school years. When I was in form 4, most of my classmates have started planning on their future study life. We were discussing and arguing on what we want to be in the future. Some of us seemed to be very sure of what we want to be. A portion of us stuck in the dilemma of choosing ambition either based on interest or parents’ choice. And others, they opt to stick to the Follow The Flow Theorem. Like usual, doctor was on the top of the list. I choose to be a dentist and I set it as my ambition. My best friend keep asking me, why I am so sure about choosing dentistry as my preferred course. I simply said, it’s because I find teeth are interesting (I really do). At that moment, I felt great for being confident and sure of my decision.

Unfortunately, it didn’t last that long. After I applied for one or two scholarships that I eligible to apply, I was called for several interviews. To cut it short, after a long wait, I only managed to get a scholarship in which I can’t be a dentist in the future, as the university did not offer dentistry courses. So, I put a high hope to get into UM, the university that I want to enter so badly. But, I was let down one more time. As time goes by, most of my friends have started their uni life, and I’m still stuck at home waiting for the moon to crash into the ocean. But the it never did.

So, I decided to just go for it ( the scholarship). Just one day before I fly to Kuching for the registration, I received a call from Petronas saying that I got a place in UTP to do chemical engineering. That call made me feel totally unsure on my previous decision. Engineering have never been in my dictionary. So, I took another one hard day to make decision.

The time is very little yet a big decision needs to be made. In the end, I choose to go to UTP. Honestly, this place scares me. The students in here are way intelligent and life in here was full of rush hours. Just as I started to get use to this place, I receive another call which was from UM. I was given a place in UM to do Asasi Sains Hayat, which was what i wanted to do all this while.

I wonder why this chain reaction never ends. Another decision need to be made. Engineering or dentistry ? At last, I made up my mind. I chose to stay in here. When I think it back again, I realized that anywhere I go I will still have to face the unknown challenges ahead of me. Life is always full of unpredictable situation and making decisions in life is a natural occurrence that we can’t run away from. I have about five more years to digest the world of chemistry and the machines around me. Probably, human anatomy like teeth wasn’t meant for me. I hope I made the right one.

“The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity. The fears are paper tigers. You can do anything you decide to do. You can act to change and control your life; and the procedure , the process is its own reward.”

~Amelia Earhart~